today was an ABSOLUTE waste of my saturday -.- bloody finance forum. seriously not my cup of tea. i could see the interest 'turn off' e moment i mentioned i was studying law. bah. this is why i feel i should only go for law events from now on. plus the fact that i know shit about finance and the banking industry just makes me feel rather inadequate sometimes -.- seeing as how most lse ppl here would kill for an ibanking job. haha. this is really a whole new world for me. i thought rj was competitive. this is phwoar i tell you. absolute madness. ooh how i really don't like this part. and e amount of pressure other ppl put on you. peer pressure. grumbles. i want to be para para-ing and not dressing up in suits and meeting stupid old ppl.

i'm trying to be concerned and driven regarding my future, but at the same time, i'm here to have fun and play damnit. uni is supposed to be e best time of my life. i don't want to spend it like this. conflicting things i tell you. but anyway, i have generally decided that i'm going to fuck care all e events shit, do my work, play and be happy (: with e exception of law events larh.

i'm not going to go back to spore only to say that i've spent my time in london forcing myself to be someone i'm not, and forcing myself to grow up immediately.

groans.